Just a lil FRUSTRATED!!!

I can't believe how stressed and frustrated I have been here lately. I thought for sure by now that Clint would have gotten bonus, but not yet... kind of hoping today's the day. We haven't even started Christmas shopping and are a little worried about the girls getting anything from us. Not to mention, today is the VERY LAST day to pay our mortgage!! Ugh! I don't even know anymore. We have never been in a situation like this around Christmas time, I am almost at a loss with what direction to go in. We were approved for a food card back in November and still have yet to see it, so we are struggling in getting groceries for our family. I have no idea. Luckily I have come up with enough ideas for dinners to get us through until Monday. After that I am just going to have to get "really" creative. I know that it is only a quarter to 7am, but I would kind of like to know now if Clint is getting a bonus today, or if they are waiting until the day before Christmas Eve to pass out bonuses. Don't understand the logic in that, but at the same time, have no control over what the company does. The only thing that I really have left to do is to wait for the light at the end of the tunnel, although it seems like forever away.