Ch-Ch-Changes..P

Wow, what a difference a year makes... I am now a proud parents of a kindergartner!! "K" makes me so amazingly happy with all of the progress that she has made!! One thing that she has accomplished that I couldn't be more proud of is a straight A student. And I love being home all day with Chazie, and am so grateful and lucky that I was able to get K into all day kindergarten. Half day was just something that was not going to work for her. She was also blessed to have one of the best teachers that she is so compatible with. It's so nice having the baby of the family home with me for another year by herself before she starts preschool next year. Ugh!! These kids are just growing up WAY TO FAST!!! At times it almost doesn't seem fair!:(

Next year is already so full of changes for us!! Clint is getting his business license and is exploring the world of working from home, even if it's only part time. He is so talented and is very versatile in the things that he is capable of doing. We are also looking into FINALLY getting a 2nd vehicle. We have just been a one car family for far to long the way that I see it, but I have been patient long enough, or at least I think that I have been. And I am in no way dissing the car that we have now. After all it has gotten us through 2 kids and minimal problems. We sure do love that little Corolla!:)

We are officially 40 days away from K turning 6!! Yes, SIX YEARS OLD!!! I am so not ready for her to take that jump to needing a second hand to tell me how old she is going to be. May sound a little silly, but I was blessed with just 2 perfect little babies, and they will forever be my babies, and growing up is not something that I am ready for either of them to do!! She is super excited and we are really going to try to provide, but she wants her party at a park this year instead of at home. As long as the weather plays in her favor there shouldn't be a problem. I have been able to pull so many ideas from pinterest in helping me figure out how to decorate for a party that would be outside opposed to being an inside party like we are all use to. But since she is getting older she is having her own idea of where she wants to have "her" birthday held at and what she wants it to be. I have no problem putting together what she wants as long as it's all do-able.

I GOT A JOB!!!

WOW! I have had a lot happen since last updating. I have a job now, but don't start until Friday. One thing that I have found is that it is conflicting with Friday is that I have Bunco! I just may be able to make it since I get off of work at 7pm and that's what time Bunco starts. Will have to wait and see. Going to talk to my mom later today just to find out if I am in or not this Friday. I have the BEST BOSS IN THE WHOLE WORLD!!! Although she wasn't my age, I knew her from church and now she's my boss, She has also given me hours that work really well for us and it just boils down to to the fact that this is a huge blessing!! I am so grateful for this too. It is so reassuring knowing that Clint won't have to get a second job on top of his already 40 hour work week, and that no one is going to have to work any over night shifts. This job is PERFECT!!! I was thinking about next year and still having this job and Cadence starting school, but as long as my hours don't change, which I don't see why they would, but nonetheless everything still works out!! Working Friday through Sunday is in no way bad days to work. They couldn't be more perfect!!

Another new thing that's been going on is since we are not able to afford to pay for preschool, I have decided that I would do the best that I can to teach Cadence myself. So far, so good!! I have her doing something from every subject just 3 days out of the week. She is doing great!!! She has her own little desk that she uses and I am hoping that she is LOVING IT!!! I know I am! Every time that she tells me the right answer to something without any helps is totally worth everything! The one thing that I have found with her is that she enjoys writing uppercase more than lowercase letters. She is really good with learning her numbers too. I am just so proud of her!! I love too, and this may sound kind of mean, but I love when she gets frustrated, because then all she needs is a smile and reassurance that I know that she knows that she can do it, and then she does!

With any luck we will be having Family Home Evening tonight. Monday was no good since we went to the store, Tuesday we went shopping so that I could get some pants for work, and now here we are in the middle of the week and tonight has got to be the night, as we are doing light grocery shopping and getting me shoes for work tomorrow. Then Friday Clint is more than likely going to be working at least until noon, and then I have to be to work by 3!! I have had this lesson planned for what seems like weeks, and it probably has been, but I am really looking forward to giving this lesson. It is on following the recipe, or Heavenly Fathers Plan, or good tasting cookie, bad tasting cookie!! This should be fun!!:)

So there is boutique out by where I live that I am so looking forward to going to!!! What I love even more about it is it's my birthday present since my birthday falls right smack dab in the middle of the week!!

Here lately I have been thinking a lot about life. Although we aren't even close to the 9th of December I am feeling grateful for the life that I have been given as it very easily could have been taken on that day. I don't really remember to much about it as I was 7 when it happened but I was hit by a car. I was air evacuated to St Joes, where I spent something like 5 weeks, with lots of therapy once I was able to go home. One of the most amazing parts is that from the outside, just looking at me, you would never guess. I have no idea what my family had to endure and go through, but I do know that I don't want to find out.

This weekend is going to be a really great one!! We are getting new phones today once Clint gets home from work. Then we are taking the kids into see their uncle, that they haven't seen in quite sometime. Come tomorrow and Sunday are the days that I am most looking forward to. In our community they are doing a little parade that the Primary kids are able to ride their bikes in. So we are going to decorate Cadence's bike so that she is able to participate in that and give her something to do that she has never had the opportunity to be a part of before. Then Sunday brings church and we always look forward to that day!:)

Monday I too am hoping is a really good day. My grandma is coming over to spend sometime with me and the girls. I am going to talk to her in advance and see if and when would be a good time to teach me how to can. We are working on putting together a food supply and if I knew how to can my own stuff then I want to learn how to do that.

Shortly after we started going to this ward that we are in now I was able to get a copy of the Relief Society cookbook. I LOVE that book!! By the end of next week I will have made 30 things out of that book. Every time that I go to make out a grocery list, that's the book that I use. There is so many yummy recipes in that book.

As of the 5th I have been drinking this drink that my grandma is selling called Spark!! I started on the 5th drinking just one bottle, instead of two since that's kind of the direction that my grandma was telling me that she does. Well, one at first didn't really have to much of an impact on me. So the next day I had two bottles. Well, now I am really seeing where this stuff is AMAZING! I am still eating, but nothing like I was!!! I love this stuff!!

Today is the day that my sister is coming to get my Cadence. She is going to take her for me for a night or two. I am so thankful for this. As soon as we get breakfast over with, I am planning on making cookies and sending them with Cadence, because having been around Cadence I know that at times she can be a handful and just kind of my way of saying thank you. It definitely helps that she has cousins over there to play with!:)

Thursday is going to be a really busy day for us. We are upgrading our phones. Ours right now seem to not be working as well as they use to, once upon a time. There is also a Relief Society Meeting that night that I am going to, that Clint had volunteered for the nursery and help watch kids. We were also supposed to have Brother Dean over for another New Member Discussion, but I think that Clint is going to call to reschedule. We are also going to do grocery shopping that night, which will be good to get that over with.

Right now I am looking into getting another family picture done. I am just trying to find the best deal. The last one that we had done, was around this time last year as it was the day that we got Chazlyn's one year pictures done. Here we are just about a year later with her birthday being in a week and one day from now!

Here lately I am really beginning to look forward to the weekends even more so than I did already. I try my hardest to do my Pilate's at least 3 times, Sunday-Thursday and then hit my tough workout once or twice Friday- Saturday. As long as I can lose 15-20 lbs. I will be doing great. y plan as far as weighing in is that I am going to pick one day out of the week and do a weigh in then. I got that off of my friends Blog (www.thedailyflab.blogspot.com), only I am not going to announce my weight until I can get it to where I want it! But I will agree that Sunday is a good day for a weigh in!

Wow! I can't believe that Chazlyn's birthday party is in TEN DAYS!!! I still have to get these invitations made up. may be we will get that done tonight once Clint gets home from work. We really need to get those mailed off!!! Yikes!! Good thing I am kind of giving a heads up notice by having sent out invitations via facebook!

After re-reading my blog from yesterday, I did the math, which was rather simple seeing how long I knew Granny for. I figured since she passed away 1 month and 1 week before my 26th birthday that I knew her 25 years, 11 months, and 3 weeks.

I don't mean to be down on myself, but I had a F.H.E. planned last night, but I just really didn't have the goodness about me to follow through with it. I was a little on the angry side and knew that if I couldn't be happy, the it would have been pointless for me to have gone ahead and did the lesson. Especially when I planned to give the lesson on reverence. Not really such a good example. I am thinking about briefing Cadence on it before she leaves me later today, just so I can say that I did do something. Instead of F.H.E. I wound up bringing Cadence over to the park. I had to treat her in some way for not being a horrible child. Besides that we don't really bring our kids to the park, so it was nice for her.

The face that's been weighing heavily on my mind is...

Here we are a little less than 2 weeks away from marking a 1 year anniversary for my entire family. This is no anniversary that I am to much looking forward to. It's nothing like a wedding anniversary, it's an anniversary that marks the passing of one of my closest, most best friends... I feel blessed to have had this AMAZING woman in my life for a month and a week shy of 26 years. She had the light of Christ in her that she brought with her every where that she went, and touched so many lives. I also feel blessed to have been her name sake. And what a blessing it has been to have taken her name and given it to my first born, but not only that, but to have had her there for the ultrasound when we found out that we were having a a girl and announcing then that we were naming her Cadence ELEANOR! That's a name that I carry, and I carry it with pride. I have been so nervous about seeing the 20th of March. I can't help but reflect back on that day, and what I was doing the day that I got the phone call that my great grandma had passed away. I was celebrating with my husbands side of the family, my daughters 1st birthday. I know on that day that I felt relief. I know that the stroke had no more control over her, and that she was perfect. I somehow managed to get through that day, being happy for my kids, and for the company that that day brought. I was fine for what was maybe a day or 2, and then there I sat. I knew I was going that Sunday before she passed to visit her, since I had sick kids and had been unable to. But Saturday came, and took her before I had the chance to see her one last time. This was a woman that I called everyday. My day was just not complete without hearing from her. So a day or 2 passes and I haven't been able to see or talk to her. Reality sets in. And I cry, and I cry, and I cry! I sit here and think, will the 20th of March be anything like thinking about her on her birthday? Or will this day be even harder? I often think that after a year, I should be healed and be over this, especially having the religious beliefs that I have, I should be okay. But here I sit in front of this computer, my hands trembling, and my voice a little shaky. Could it be just the Spark that I am sitting here drinking, or is it my own insecurity. I have dreaded every holiday and every get together that I have had with my family, just because I knew that Granny wasn't going to be there, yet somehow I managed to get through it. So, will I survive the March 20th?? Without a doubt! I will go to church that day, knowing that I am doing exactly what she would have wanted me to do, and if she were still here, she would have expected me to do.

I know that the picture is blurry and the same as the one at the top, but this is from the funeral, and this is the woman that I miss everyday of my life!

What an awesome day today has been for our little family! Our little Chazlyn was blessed during Sacrament Meeting today!!! I am so proud of how far my family has come. Afterall, I did marry a nonmember. That right there has turned out to be nothing short of a blessing in itself. He now is a convert and a Priesthood holder, and this family of ours is just thriving the way that I have wanted it to all along! Not only that, but the fact that we have both of our kids blessed! That is something that was so hard for me, since I had to go about having Cadence blessed on my own. I am so grateful for the Ward Family that we have and for all the support that we feel that we get in return. It is such an amazing thing to be a part of.

Tomorrow is yet another day that I am really looking forward to! My dad is picking up my husband so that I can go over and hang out over at my parents with everyone!! I am bringing my doggies too!