Waiting is sometimes the hardest thing to do...

We found out a couple of days ago that Clint's dad is in the hospital. And all we know is that his heart started beating really fast and then he passed out. From what we were told they were going to do a stress test on him yesterday. Hoping that they know something by now, but I am not to sure if they do. All I know is that this brings me back to the Granny and Grandpa McCall days and I don't like it one bit! Although Clint's dad is up in Nevada and that makes things a little more complicated. I am just being prayerful that the doctors will be able to treat his problem and that we can just move past this.

The weirdest thing with my asthma has been happening here lately. I have always had asthma, but nothing more than exercise induced asthma. Here lately I have been woken up in the night not being able to breath. I thought that this was something that I was supposed to grow out of?? Just not real sure what has brought all of this on.

I am so glad that I have made a deal with Cadence to grow out my own hair. She has a history of climbing on counters in the middle of the night after she has been put to bed and getting a hold of scissors and cutting her hair. I have had to take her twice to a salon to get it fixed. So after being at my wits end with her I did something that I sometimes wish that I could take back. I told her that if she would quit cutting her hair, I wouldn't cut mine either. But that if she did cut her hair that we were going to shave her head. How awful is that?!?!?! I feel so guilty for even letting a comment like that come out of my mouth towards her. I am just really hoping that that day NEVER COMES!! And the thing that I have noticed about Cadence and disciplining is that I have to follow through with what I said i would do, otherwise she walks all over me. So now I have hair that is past my shoulders!!

I am really just looking forward to tomorrow! I am really loving Sundays for some reason all of a sudden. We used to not enjoy Sundays so much since it's the day before the work week starts and really, who wants to start the week with a Monday?? It's the day after the weekend and the day that things start all over again! I love having my hubby home!:) I am just really starting to look forward to going to church!!

While we were at Walmart yesterday I found some ribbon that was marked down to $1 and bought two rolls of it. One is red and the other is kind of an off white.. I figured that those are two colors that my kids can wear more times than not, so I am going to make a couple different kinds of bows. I am still trying to figure out how my sister makes the ones that she makes, but am just going to make the ones that I already know how and save learning something new for later.

Today is the day that we get our Cadence back. She stayed the night over at Clint's family's house. I am not going to lie, I have really enjoyed Chazlyn so much more! She is a lot of fun o watch when she is playing with her sister or interacting with other kids in Nursery or at family get togethers with her cousins, but she is even more fun when there is one on one time with her! She has so much personality and the sweetest little disposition. My mom told me that she is a lot like I was when I was a baby, very happy and easy going. Those are two words that I can also use to describe Chazlyn!

Cadence on the other hand, LOVES attention!! If we are paying a little attention to Chazlyn and think that what she is doing is so cute, Cadence will turn around and do the same thing as Chazlyn expecting to get the same recognition as Chazlyn! We are having a bit of a problem getting her to realize that there are a lot of big girl things that she does that we think are really cute too, but not the ones that she has to act like a baby. She has reverted back to a lot of baby things since and before we had Chazlyn that I would like her to get past, but at the same time, I want to be able to enjoy my little four year old and not wish her a day older. I am really getting to the point that I don't want my kids to grow up as fast as they have. I used to be the parent that just wanted to get out of the baby stage already! But now that both of my little girls have grown and it happening really fast, I wish I could have just paused time and really enjoyed them. I have done a lot better with that since having Chazlyn, and what I find to have been my problem in the first place is that I was severely depressed after I had Cadence, but did nothing about it. I just told people what they wanted to hear and moved on. It pretty much wasn't until I had Chazlyn that I actually didn't want to go down the same path that I had after I had Cadence. I started acknowledging that I was having problems and not just dealing with messed up hormones and not seeking the help that I knew that I could get. Having Chazlyn had me looking at being a mom a lot different than I did after having Cadence. But now that one is four and the other is pushing two, I think that I have grown and have really started to enjoy what I now consider to be my blessings and nothing less than that.